I’m gonna get on the bed

Fold my legs.

Breathe in, through the nose.

I’m gonna drop my head.

Out through the mouth,

Try to recollect.

I’m gonna cut my losses,

And begin again.

No, I gotta smash the Seraph.

I gotta burn the flowers,

Smash the mask, and the Man O’ War.

I’ve gotta crush La Mano Negra,

I’ve got to reach down my throat,

Grab my soul, and rip out every

Horseshoe crab, every ammonite,

Every nautilisk, every remnant of the spirit

That reminds me that I am the fossil.

I am the one who hasn’t changed.

For millenia.

I have to. I have to lose that mind…

The mind I know I can change.

Breathe in, through the nose.

I’m gonna drop my head.

And dump it out.

Try to recollect.

I’m gonna cut my losses,

And begin again.