When you knew me

I was hurting,

And it hurts more to open back up,

When you held me,

I needed it

But now I’m stuck.

In survival mode, with you.

But “I love you.” and “Thank you.”

Are two things

I can never say enough…

And I know I never reach out,

I know I never call, just to say hello

But it’s just that now that everything is calm, Now that the threat is gone…

I’m not sure how to move around you. How to be around you.

If we’re not dodging, if we’re not ducking…

I never learned how to have small talk with you.

I never learned how to let my guard down with you… For everybody’s sake.

But that’s okay, it’s definitely better this way.

Just remember, the history we shared

Is never undone.

I love you, and thank you…

Two things I can never say enough…

I love you, for holding me up.

I thank you,

For keeping my trust.